Basically, this time you are imagining it....and as they say, truth is just perception. different people may have different versions of truth...but my truth is my truth and i cannot lie to myself. But the truth or the recollection, perception are not what set us thinking. Thinking starts with feelings.
Feelings, yes.....feelings that do not obey our common sense or wisdom or maturity. Feelings have an identity of their own. I have knowingly never done any harm to anybody, barring one incident. And logically thinking, knowing myself, i think i should feel bad for doing it. But again, feelings have their own mind....i always feel good about that one act.
Similarly, when i remember times when people have been bad to me, again i tell myself that i should not feel bad since i did not do anything wrong and it was the malice of the other person which he inflicted upon me. But again, i feel bad....where i should not.
I often remember a time when i was badly beaten up and i knew that i should be very angry, but i felt guilty.....very surprising to my own self.
I remember a time when the one man i trusted more than myself went about doing shameful acts and started blaming me for his deeds....he wanted me to feel guilty....but i felt hatred for him. Well that was well deserved as my common sense also confirms the true nature of the man (which is worth only hatred).
There is a very popular saying that a man who has conquered his mind has conquered the world. As i understand it, it means that somebody who has been able to suppress his feelings is the one who can achieve anything in this world. But can we call a man without feeling a man?
I don't know if feelings are right or common sense...or is it good to follow your heart or your mind. Or if there should be a equal utilization of both.....but can we ever really know what is the best for us?
